When my enemy is winning
What do you do when fear and shame come around and God isn’t taking your calls? In that situation here, David teaches us that God wants always prayers from the heart, never polite pretense.
A David psalm.
1 How long, YHWH
will you go on ignoring me?
How long will you hide your face
whenever I seek your help?
2 How long must I store up anxious cares
while grief fills my heart day after day?
How long will you let my enemy
have the upper hand?
3 Look at me!
Answer me, YHWH, my God!
Give light to my eyes
before death’s darkness takes me
4 my enemy crows, “I’ve won!”
and my foes celebrate my downfall.
5 But I trust in your undying love—
my heart rejoices in your certain rescue.
6 Yes, I’ll sing praise to YHWH
because he’s been so good to me.
David’s early career was marked by his ascending the dizzy heights of celebrity, only to fall to the depths of national ignominy. In his four opening how longs, David isn’t really asking God for a time-frame. He’s demanding action. His situation is all wrong, and everything points back to God, who is ignoring him—even worse, seemingly evading him.
That explains the note of holy exasperation here. Exasperation because his covenant God isn’t there for him when he needs him. Holy because David is just asking God to do what he promised to do. Instead of peace and prosperity, David’s days are filled with anxiety, grief and discouragement, his enemies on top. He demands that God look at him, answer him and revive him before its too late and his enemies dance on his grave.
David pivots in verse five, not because his situation has changed, but because—far more importantly—he knows God’s commitment to him hasn’t changed. Since God has bound his redemptive plan to David’s success, David’s downfall would spell God’s own defeat, and that’s not going to happen. The strength and certainty of YHWH’s covenant love give him hope. Though God hasn’t rescued him, David knows it’s as settled as if it’s already happened. So with his hope more certain than the darkness around him, he can see himself singing praise to God for acting on his behalf.
Prayer:
I echo David’s cry, Jesus. How long will I be locked in a battle where the forces of darkness have the upper hand? Yet when I think how strong your love for me is, how can I doubt that you’ll triumph. I will yet praise you for yours is the name above every name. Amen.
In your free moments today, pray these words:
But I trust in your undying love—
my heart rejoices in your certain rescue.
Yes, I’ll sing praise to YHWH
because he’s been so good to me.